A-back to therapy we shall go!

Yep, I did it. I made an appointment with Lynn, my trusty, sweet counselor. I do so love her and I have to say that just the mere sound of her voice made me happy happy happy.

I'm just feeling like I need to check in. Just peek my head in. I don't plan on staying long. It's just been a long year. I was thinking about it yesterday and realized that it's been an overwhelming year. But, I am so friggin' pround of myself for how far I've come in the last year. It's not been easy. It's hard work. I think way too much about way too many things. It's interesting, I've become a very cerebral person. I think that's one of the best things that seeing Lynn in the first place did for me. She taught me to look at my life and what I do and think clearly about it. I look at the "why." I love that. I just think there are a few whys I still need to figure out. I'm sure there are some whys I haven't even gotten to.

Here's the cool thing about the whole therapy deal. A good counselor will never give you the answers, they'll help you find your own answers and teach you how to keep doing that. It's beautiful. At this point, I've worked through a lot. This time last year, I knew there needed to be some serious change in my life and I couldn't possibly go on living like I was. A year later, I am a completely different person. Completely. I just owe it to myself to check in on me.

Comments

[Auntie Mame]

Good on you! I was in therapy for close on 3 years and went back a few times for "maintenance" - I remarked to Dr. Toad that he should offer maintenance contracts - Seriously tho, knowing the "why" is what it's all about - when you catch yourself acting/reacting in those less than positive ways, you can recognize them for what they are and where they come from but know this too - you can't change everything - some behaviors one seems to be stuck with and the best you can do is recognize them and try to mitigate their negative impact. I am always going to be a "caregiver" but I have learned, ever so slightly, not to deny my needs over someone else's and I am still learning at this late date to say what I need - I might be a mind reader but most other people aren't!

[A Bowl Of Stupid]

Hey kiddo, just poking in to check on things and to say "hey." Glad to see you're okay, and lemme know if yer doc can get me some malaria pills (just in case, y'know).
Be good.