I think I need a mantra

I dropped my basket today. I am so freaking exhausted as I write this, I barely feel like keeping my eyes open. I have hit the end of my rope with my job.

I used to love my job. It used to be such a major source of happiness and pride and accomplishment for me. I felt in control of my surroundings, smart, innovative and useful. Now I just feel like shit. Instead of answering to one person, which is totally sane, I now answer to a Board of Directors, none of which have ever actually done my job or have the expertise I have. Like Peter is Office Space, I have 7 bosses. This is no bueno.

I spent a good portion of my afternoon being henpecked by three of them. I couldn't even understand why the hell they're being that nit picky. Worse yet, since my job has changed in the last year, I don't even know what's legitimately in my job scope as far as what I'm supposed to accomplish.

Nothing seems certain anymore. I have no idea what I'm doing or supposed to be doing or what to expect or what is expected of me. I just keep working until someone tells me to stop and do it a different way. So much of my time and energy on a daily basis is wasted. My job satisfaction is a negative 4 on a scale of 1 to 10.

Sadly, I've figured out what I have to do for at least a year of so. Suck it up. I have to play the game. I have to let them do whatever the want and do exactly what they tell me. No more, no less. Just what they say. i can't care if it's the right thing to do. I can't care how I would do it. Essentially, I need to not care. Period. Come in at 8. Leave at 5. Work in between. This is not my passion and there is no wayy my job is going to change so that I become really exctied and jazzed about it. But, that's not to say something else won't come along some other time. Until then, I am fresh out of give a shit.

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[islaygirl]

are you sure we're not the same person?